Before Period–Day 25.

Moon:  Full Moon

Flow/Texture:

Mood:  energetic

Symptoms:  cravings

Mucus:  white balls, stronger scent/taste, wet newspaper texture

I’m weirded out by the lack of symptoms, especially while I’m so close.  My workout routine’s been consistent and I’m taking my vitamins, but still.

With the full moon, I had plans for a ritual, but that didn’t pan out.  I doubt that I’ll even mediate.  I was thrown off the vibe.  People.  Pfft.  I’ve heard, however, that the window  is open for at least a day or so after.  I’ll try again tomorrow night.

The 7th teaching has given me some things on which to meditate.  There was more on unity.

Oh, my seeds are sprouting–just in time.  I’m thrilled.  Seems they like the sun more than I assumed.

I’ll embark on another water fast tomorrow and read as much as possible and meditate on womanhood.  Perhaps I’ll think about Oshun for a bit.

Before Period–Day 25.

Moon:  Waning Crescent

Flow/Texture:

Mood:  emotionally fragile, on edge

Symptoms:  crying, negative thoughts

Mucus:  white, thin, watery, normal scent

All I can think about is drinking a good glass of wine.  I feel so suddenly sensitive with a wavering sense of   fragility.  It’s as if I’m a piece of crystal balanced on the edge of a shelf.

I feel weak, emotionally weak.  It’s affecting me physically as well, being evident in bouts of lethargy and apathy.

I didn’t go anywhere today.  It rained a lot, but I didn’t enjoy it.  I didn’t stand outside to watch it come down.

I thought it would be a good idea to rest today, to avoid exercise–that wasn’t a good idea, despite the nagging pain in my side.

For most of the day I was fine, but now I’m here, crying as I mouth the words to Radiohead’s “Optimistic.”

Before Period–Day 25.

Moon:  Waning Crescent

Flow/Texture:

Mood:  A-ok

Symptoms:  chin acne

Mucus:  white, lotion-y, somewhat sticky, normal scent

Seems I will have my full 25-day cycle at least.

I don’t have any noticeable symptoms and I don’t feel like I’m near my period yet.

Most likely I’ll wake up gummy tomorrow and the excruciating cramps and mood swinging will hit me full-force.

Right now, I’m trotting off to do some yoga to prepare my body for whatever comes–being all warm and bendy makes striking poses to stave off pain an even sweeter torture.

I’m almost craving cramps because I love how much the Bridge pose burns my abs, melting the pain away.

Oh yeah, menstrual masochism.

Before Period–Day 25.

Moon: First Quarter

Flow/Texture: None

Mood: briefly testy

Symptoms: temper, temper, headache, sore cooter

Mucus: milky, normal, weird scent

I’d forgotten to start using the Smart Balls to test my mucus.  I remembered this time and got a milky texture.  I stuck my finger in there and got the pasty, rolled balls stuff.  Weird.

Judging from the these symptoms and my temper this morning, I don’t think I’ll need to worry about my mucus for much longer.

Right now, I’m feeling a bit heavy in the head, like my brain is swelling.  I have a feeling lethargy and cramping are up soon.  Goody.  Yep, I’ll be needing those asanas.

I imagine that, given the achy sensation in my cooter, my cervix is oozing a little red–pre-blood.  I wish I had a speculum now.

Does this mean that my cycle’s been pretty consistent over the years–being around 25 days long?